Kai

lewis with the 13 assists, finish ur frags bro

can i have skins instead of a game?

7th Jan - CS Tourney? :)

beyond a doubt

nah

I was only ten when my drug use started. Both of my parents are active addicts, so it was my mum who got me into it. She’s always acted like a teenager, more like a friend than a mum, and she gave me pills for the first time. I was living with her back then and I started using consistently—taking a bunch of pills, smoking weed, and drinking a lot. The pills were my main thing: Percocet, Vicodin, a lot of downers. I struggled with depression and my parents’ physical and verbal abuse, so then I started abusing myself with the drugs, cutting, bulimia, anorexia, and the guys I kept bringing in and out of my life. I started acting out like your typical teenage drug addict, stealing and sneaking out at night, but it was all pointless because my mum was high all the time and didn’t even notice. By age 13 I was living in a shelter with mum and my youngest sister. The police found me there and took me back to my dad’s. He was very abusive and his own drug of choice was uppers, so I started doing a lot of coke, meth, and ecstasy those next three years. Those became my drugs of choice. In July of 2009 I ran away from where I was living with my dad in south Texas. I don’t remember all of it, just that I took Xanax, woke up in downtown Houston, and never went home again. At that point I didn’t have a “drug of choice” anymore—it was just whatever anybody had, whatever was in your hand. In Houston I contacted an old using buddy and started staying with her and her mum. Her mum and my mum used to get high together, so when I was living with them we’d all get high together. A few weeks later my grandparents found me and got custody of me, so I moved in with them. The very next day I snuck out, bought a bunch of drugs and did them all: coke, pills, liquid codeine…all this crazy stuff. I wound up at a park where I went into the bathroom because I felt like I was going to have a seizure. That’s when I caught my reflection in the mirror and nearly jumped out of my skin. My eyes were sunken in, I was black and blue, I had cuts all over…I didn’t recognize myself. I literally thought it was someone else in the bathroom with me, that’s how bad it was, and I was terrified—I thought it was a monster. I realize now that I hadn’t looked myself in the eyes ever since I’d started getting high. When I went outside the cops were there; they tackled me and sent me to juvenile hall, where I failed every drug test imaginable. I remember the lady doing my intake—she looked at me and her eyes were so sad, like she was thinking, “What on earth have you been doing to yourself?” The next day I met my Probation Officer, and of all the POs in Montgomery County I got a notoriously hard-ass one. She told me that she was going to flip a coin; if I got heads I got to go to Phoenix House, if I got tails I went to a psychiatric program. I happened to land on heads. I started treatment at the Houston Outpatient and Prevention program, and I met my counselor, Rudy. I’d get so angry at him, yelling, like “Why do you even care!? I don’t understand why you’re even bothering!” But Rudy said, “I’m not going to give up on you,” and he didn’t. Not even when I relapsed. Not even when I got arrested and sent back to juvie. There I was: 15 years old, without any friends or family, and I just wanted more than anything to overdose on heroin and die. That’s when I finally got on my knees and prayed. I don’t think I actually said anything, and if I did I don’t remember it. But I got this overwhelming sense that even though my lawyer, my PO, Rudy, my friends, and my family could all give up on me…God wouldn’t. So I wasn’t going to give up on myself. I’m not a religious person, but that moment was my first experience of spirituality. And that same day, Rudy came to visit me. I was SO happy to see him because for the first time I felt like I actually had a chance. I was like “Rudy! Guess what?! I realized I’m an alcoholic and a drug addict!” And he was like, “I’m glad you finally figured that out.” Rudy really went to bat for me about going back to treatment, and I got back in. I finished my treatment at Phoenix House and participated in the Cornerstone Recovery program as well. I’ve been sober since 2009, coming up on three years in October. Since I’ve gotten sober I’ve had my mum come in and out of treatment and my life, my sister too. I’ve lost a lot of family and more friends than I can count to this disease of addiction. But at least I haven’t lost myself. Sure, I’ve had bad moments—I went through a breakup around the same time that a close friend of mine died, but I didn’t let that send me back out there to using. Nothing’s been easy, but recovery is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. There wasn’t a specific event that saved my life; it was my own spirituality and surrender that did it. I know without a doubt in my heart that if I’d continued using I’d be dead. Not in trouble, not in jail—dead. I remember sitting with my first sponsor and being so ashamed to tell her that I’d never felt happy in my entire life. She was like, “It’s ok, you will be.” And she was right. Today I work as a project coordinator for a corporate moving company and I live with my girlfriend, who has four years sober, in downtown Houston. I go to meetings regularly and work with my sponsors and sponsor other teens. I’m completing an internship in wilderness-based recovery at Cornerstone. And it’s all downhill from here; I’m only 18, I’ve got a whole life in recovery ahead of me! I’m like, dude—what great stuff is going to happen next? TL;DR, did drugs, stopped. http://www.talktofrank.com/

YOU'RE ALIVE

who r u

Dead game

As a result of the Warden Project, I have been given the opportunity to create my own server for Outbreak. I have been working for a little while now and I am proud to announce that it is officially opening. Thank you to all who attended the event, although it was simple and there were lots of people in one channel, I still enjoyed hosting it and had a lot of fun playing. I would like to hear feedback anyone may have about the server that they might have from the event or from playing in the future. Any suggestions are appreciated as they will help us to constantly improve the server and will make it much more enjoyable for everyone. Maps: The maps that are included on the server currently are: br_flood_ob, br_slopes_ob, br_electrified_ob, br_killzones_ob_x, and a brand new battle royale map, br_flatline_ob. You will need to delete your .bsp files for these maps again if you have issues joining. Feedback: The feedback that I am particularly interested in is map suggestions. New maps are required in order to keep the server fresh and unique. Although I am very new to map making, I would still like to try to create new maps with suggestions from the community. Flatline is a very simple map but I tried to make it as fair as possible, giving players a choice as they leave spawn, to fight or to run on without getting instantly killed. I also tried to have different styles for each zone. The red zone (rifles) is more open and long range, while the orange zone (shotguns & smgs) is a more close quarters area. Any further updates that are made to the server will be posted here. Message me on steam or come talk to me on teamspeak if you have any suggestions you would like to tell me. Store: The store remains similar to the previous minigames and jailbreak stores. Trails, hats, masks are all still obtainable through credit purchases and there are exclusive, donator-only items in the store such as pets or player models. We hope to add more items to the store in the future.

i cant pick regularly, and eat for bottom wiping

This is the IP to connect to the server connect 149.202.88.7:28015 Feel free to join the server even if you didn't sign up, but people who signed up will have priority over those who didn't.

Hb weezo

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It has a password and will until the opening event is over. Sign up for the event if you want, it's on Sunday at 7pm. I don't think I ever played the original BR mod for CS:GO, but if it is the gamemode where you spawn at the edge of the map and have to work your way to the middle, then yes.

This event is brought to you by Sir_Conor, Kai & Eagle. This event is to celebrate the grand opening of the new Outbreak Community server, Battle Royale! Event: This event will consist of 3 maps in total: br_flood_ob, br_electrified_ob & br_slopes_ob. There will be 7 rounds played on each map. The maximum number of players for this event is 32. Bring your pals. Sign up using this template: Name: Player/Reserve: Commitment Availability: Sign up list: Notes Either Conor, Kai or Eagle will reply to this thread with the IP and password you need to get into the server. The BR server rules apply to this event. So no teaming. You may have to delete your .bsp files for these maps if you have trouble connecting to the server. If you have any issues, contact Sir_Conor, Kai or Eagle.

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Thanks to all the people who came and playtested. Sir_Conchobong and I have started adding new plugins and I am currently working on a new map to add, I don't have an exact date for when the server will be open properly, but it will not be too long. I will tell you all what changes have been made since playtesting when the server is officially opened.

I like this idea, maybe tomorrow if not many people can do it tonight

IP: 149.202.88.7:28015 Put this in console to connect directly: connect 149.202.88.7:28015 If anyone finds any issues, please reply on this thread telling me. Make sure to tell me which map, where (Colour and direction, like north-east corner) and what the issue is.

If anyone would like to generously lend their help and playtest the server for me, you will be able to do so later. I will reply to this thread with the IP and password for the server later today. To anyone who has helped me to playtest the server before this time, you may have to delete your .bsp files for the following maps: br_slopes_ob, br_flood_ob, br_killzones_ob and br_electrified_ob. If you didn't know, your .bsp files are located here: C:\Program Files (x86)\Steam\steamapps\common\Counter-Strike Global Offensive\csgo\maps